Devry's 27th Birthday!

Devry turned 27 on the 28th!
Unfortunately he had to work all day. I felt bad that he had to spend his Birthday working, so I decided I would postpone it until the 29th :)
I woke up with Payton on the 29th. Devry had gotten home really late, so I tried to let him sleep in. The only problem is that he doesn't ever sleep in :) So after getting some things ready I let him get out of bed.
He came out and saw the decorations I had made.
I loved making this Happy Birthday Banner. I will be able to use it for lots of Birthday's

Payton and I also decorated the Bedroom door with balloons and fun notes.

Payton and I made some Birthday cards for Devry.

Payton had fun making his. I let him color it, and we taped balloons on like he wanted.
The funniest part was when he kept asking to make a kite to go with his card, "like mommy." I was really confused, until he started pointing to the banner I made. Apparently he thought I was making kite's for Devry when I was making the banner. So I let him pick out some scrap paper and we tied some string to it. He loved giving it to Devry for a gift!
Next we enjoyed a yummy breakfast casserole that I made. Devry's Favorite for breakfast :)

Throughout the rest of the day I had so much fun surprising Devry with gifts
He had insisted that I not buy him anything big. So I made lots of little gifts and came up with some really fun ideas to make it special.

Here is the pile of presents I gave him. I decided to do a bit of a scavenger hunt for him to find them.

Payton had a lot of fun helping Devry unwrap his presents as he found them.

Devry's first gift was this little box I made. Every gift after this had little tokens in it. Something I would do for him, free days of diaper changes, a dessert of his choosing...etc.
This was another gift I made for him. I got the idea off a fun website with tons of dating ideas.

I put a dry erase marker on the back with Velcro. It is fun to write little notes on it telling Devry why I love him!
I gave him a few other fun gifts. I really tried to think of things that will help bring us closer together while he is away. The biggest one was his Bluetooth headset. Rock Springs has a very strict law about cell phone use when driving. Since Devry spends almost 4 hours driving a day, plus the hours and hours he spends driving to and from Rock Springs, I thought it would be great to be able to talk to him a little more if he had a headset to talk to me. It works great and I love talking to him more.

The last gift is alot of fun! I filled these jars with a combination of 366 pieces of his favorite kinds of candy and notes. The notes have things I love about Devry, my favorite memories of us dating, etc. Each day in 2012 he gets to choose a note to read, or a candy to eat. I hope that doing this will mean a lot to him, especially during the weeks he is away and I don't get to tell him those things in person.

I gave him a wallet photo holder with updated photo's of Payton and me.
I also made another little gift for him to enjoy the weeks he is gone. I filled 2 pill containers with various types of candies, and little quotes on marriage, relationships etc. Each day, he gets to enjoy a little candy and read some quotes that will help us appreciate each other more, and strengthen our marriage.

I had fun finding and thinking of these ideas. Devry really appreciated everything and enjoyed opening gifts.

My SIL Rachelle was so kind and watched Payton for us for a few hours in the afternoon.
Devry and I went to my Dr's appointment, and ate Dinner at Costa Vida.

After Dinner we came home, and had some of Devry's family over for cake.

I bugged Devry to tell me what kind of cake he wanted. He doesn't like me going all out for him, so his request was a very simple brownies and ice cream.

I may have elaborated. :)
His favorite candy is reese's peanut butter cups.
I searched online and found a Brownie Reese's PB cup ice cream cake.
I had to make it!
It was really really good, and I will definitely use the recipe again.

Devry and Payton blowing out candles.

We had a fun day! I enjoyed spending the day appreciating Devry.
I cannot even begin to express how much I love this incredible man.
He truly is amazing!
He is the most hardworking, devoted husband.
He works hours and hours away from us, and never complains.
He is always so thoughtful of me, and always makes me smile and laugh.
I love him more and more the longer I am married to him.
I am so lucky to have such a wonderful husband!
Happy 27th Birthday Devry!!

24 weeks!

As of Friday I am 24 weeks along!
As a labor and delivery nurse, I have seen more heartbreaking situations with pregnancy and baby's then I would ever like. Because of this, I have quite a bit of nervousness, anxiety, and stress when it comes to pregnancy. As the weeks pass, I begin to become less nervous and more excited. Chances of loosing these babies lessen, they move more so I can constantly judge their well being, and the fact that each week they are more and more likely to be viable outside of utero makes me a little less anxious. Of course, I still have a long ways to go, but am cautiously beginning to prepare more and more for their arrival.
24 weeks is a stepping stone in my mind...they have a chance now. 28 weeks will feel really good...then 33 will be GREAT. 33 weeks on, the NICU at Madison can most likely keep them. 36 weeks will be AMAZING. As nervous as I am about them, I have a very positive outlook on carrying them long enough to have minimal or no complications. I very easily see myself having them at 37 or 38 weeks. My body seems to be cooperating with carrying them. I am hopeful it will continue this way, and although maybe uncomfortable, I will carry them no problem.

I am definitely feeling and looking pregnant lately! What a difference the past 4 weeks has made! They are growing like crazy, which means I am growing like crazy! I feel pretty good, with some aches and pains that are to be expected. It is so neat to be able to feel them so much. I am starting to be able to tell which baby is moving. It is strange, but I am feeling kind of like I am getting to know their little personalities just from their movements. Baby A is SO active. Constantly moving, kicking, punching, and making me very aware that he is there. Baby B is not. He is much more mellow. I rarely feel him, and I think when I do his brother is moving at the same time and is much more active so that is what I notice. It suprised me SO much when I went to my Dr's appointment on Thursday and saw that baby B had flipped completely around and is now head down too. I thought that would have been something I would notice....yet I didn't. I don't know when he flipped or why I didn't notice, but he did! There is always a chance of him flipping back, but it is nice to know they are both head down. I plan on trying to labor and delivery them regularly. I am in no way opposed to a c-section and will not hesitate to have one if I need it....but it would be nice to not have to recover from it if they can do just fine the other way. So that's the plan! The way my Dr put it is that if I can deliver a 9 lb baby, 2 smaller ones will be a breeze :) We'll see what happens. I am willing to change my plan in an instant if these boys need it!
My Dr's appointment went great. No concerns, no problems. They look fantastic! Next appointment will have a little more to it. A full ultrasound measuring their growth, the glucose tolerance test, blood tests, and I will get Rhogam (for being 0 negative blood type). Then after that I will probably start going every 2 weeks or more until I deliver.
We are starting to make preparations for them. Buying some things we need, making blankets, burp clothes and carseat covers. We will be painting the nursery next week, and start setting everything up. My goal is to have EVERYTHING ready by the beginning of march. I will be huge and pretty useless by then, so hopefully we can get it all done.
I have 14 weeks (until 38 weeks, which is the longest I will go...so its the end in my book :) )
It works out to be 25 shifts at work...if I can work that long.
Devry will only be home 4 times between now and then! That means lots of projects for him the weeks he is home!
It is crazy! Time is flying by with this pregnancy. I have so much to do!
And we have to come up with names. Ugh. We are really having a hard time.
We are excited to hopefully get to take a quick little trip for just Devry and I this month. We figured it will be at LEAST a year before we ever get some time away for just us, so we want to before I get too far along. Not sure exactly what we are doing yet, but we will figure out something.

Here is my 24 week belly picture. It's getting harder for me to post them as I begin to get huge....but I know I will be glad later that I did. Even if I do look like a giant whale :)

The next 3 months will be challenging, yet exciting.
I feel like no matter how difficult things are, I am always taken care of.
For example...
Last year, when Devry decided to take the job in Wyoming, we had to decide what to do with Payton the nights I worked. The first month or so we took him to family's houses to stay. They were so willing to help us out. At first I thought that would work. The more I took him the more I realized he just did so much better at home, in his own bed. I knew he would do better with consistency since his whole world was already be turned upside down with Devry gone. Plus, he is a routine kid...and needs all his "bedtime stuff"...which was a hassle to get to and from the various places he was staying. Devry and I both felt like we needed to hire someone. We posted an ad on the university's website and were overwhelmed with responses. So many wonderful girls that wanted the job. We filtered through them, and after many interviews, chats, and prayers we chose a girl. Her name is Carissa, and he has been incredible! All semester she would come before I had to leave for work, and stay until she had class the next day. Payton ADORES her! She is so helpful, and always tidy's up my house after Payton is in bed. She takes care of him so well, and keeps his routine. I don't have to worry when I work.
This semester is her "off track." So I thought she would be going back to Boise for the semester. I was disappointed and nervous to try to find someone else. Then she decided she didn't want to leave Rexburg for the semester. Everything worked out perfectly. She found a part time job that she works at m-f 12-4...which never interferes with my work schedule, and also makes her free the mornings after I work to watch Payton for me. She is going to be living with us. She is so willing to help me out, and I will be so grateful for her help the next 3 months. It is a huge stress lifted from me that I know I have her help if I do get put on bedrest, or any other problems. Even things like I can go to my appointments without taking Payton, or go grocery shopping. It is wonderful to have her! I feel so lucky and spoiled that I found such an awesome girl, and that we have the financial means to have her work for us.

Anyways, Happy New Year!! It has been a fun, eventful, memory filled 2011, and I am so excited for what 2012 will bring! My New Year's resolution for the year.....

To survive it :)

Christmas 2011

We had a wonderful Christmas this year!
We were really excited that Devry was able to come home for the day.
He arrived home around 6pm on Christmas Eve. We knew he would be coming home that night, but weren't sure how late it would end up being, so we were THRILLED to see him at 6. We enjoyed yummy Chinese food at Devry's Parents house. All but one of his brothers were out of town for Christmas, so we just enjoyed a small get together with his parents and Tim and Danizza.
We came home Christmas Eve and opened our traditional Christmas eve presents...pj's.
Payton was so cute opening his presents. He was SO excited, and loved his new pj's.

After Payton was in bed, Devry and I stayed up late setting up gifts. We had Payton's big gift to assemble and it took a while. We finally got to bed around 1. We didn't wake up until Payton did at 8. I was shocked. My entire life, I have LOVED waking up for Christmas morning. I was always up first, and wouldn't let anyone else sleep. I never sleep good the night before, and usually am out of bed by 6. Not this year, I slept like a rock, and didn't hear a thing till Payton was awake. Crazy for me! My mom was SHOCKED when I told her :)

We came out and opened stockings in our family room. Santa spoiled us tons this year!

Payton LOVED opening presents. He was so fun to watch. Every present he would open, he would get SO excited, and say "OH NO!!".....although he seemed to mean "OH WOW!" I LOVED seeing his face light up everytime...even if it was a toothbrush, or socks.

These two cuties had a ton of fun opening their presents together! Love them!

This next picture is so cute! I walked in the room and noticed them both sitting on the couch, completely involved in opening the present they were on. And both of them are sitting with their ankles crossed. It makes me laugh because it is something Devry always does...when he's sitting, sleeping, anything. And now Payton does. Anyways, I loved spending Christmas morning with these guys!
After stockings were done, we headed into the living room for big presents.
Here is our Christmas Tree.

Once Again, we had a blast watching Payton open his presents. He was definitely spoiled rotten by us and our families! He sure did love every gift though!

Devry and I were also so spoiled! We received such wonderful gifts, and felt so loved! Devry gave me some wonderful gifts, but best of all was his surprise that he was staying home with us until the 26th! I thought he had to go back to Rock Springs Christmas afternoon/evening, so I was thrilled to find he got permission to go into work late so he could spend the entire day and night with us.

We saved Payton's big gift till the end. It was all set up and covered with a blanket. When we pulled it off, the look on his face was priceless. He has been obsessed with trains since he was really little, so we knew he would love it. Our goal was to find a gift that he would love for a long time, and would keep him occupied for long periods of time....especially for after I have 2 newborns to care for. I think we found the perfect gift!!
His Train Table...

He spent every second we let him playing with it for the rest of the day. He had so much fun figuring it all out, looking at all the different trains, making the sounds and lights go, and adding his own toys to the set. I have never seen him so excited about a toy! It was great to see how much he loved it. So worth it! He has spent hours and hours playing with it since Christmas. I know it will continue to be a favorite activity for him....and for his little brothers when they get old enough. I'm excited to have it!

After we finished with presents, we ate breakfast, and enjoyed playing for a bit. Then we got ready and went to church. Payton looked adorable in his little red shirt and tie. He loved getting to take some new toys and books to church with him.
Here are some pictures of us dressed up and ready to go. I actually made it in some of these ones! I am behind the camera most of the time, and haven't made it in many lately (this may or may not be purposely :) )

We enjoyed Church, then came home and had Devry's Parents, Tim and Danizza over for Turkey Dinner. We all contributed parts of the dinner so it wasn't an overload on one person. It was delicious, and we had so much fun spending some time with family .
The rest of the day we spent, playing with toys, relaxing and enjoying time together celebrating. It was nice to have Christmas morning with our own little family, and to enjoy some time with Devry's family too. We got to Skype with my parents, and as always love talking to them.
We had such a wonderful day, and loved seeing Payton's excitement!
Hope you all had a wonderful Christmas too!

Christmas

After having a hard couple of days, I woke up today with the determination to have a better one. I was looking up a recipe online and came across this video on one of my favorite recipe blogs. I am so grateful I watched it.

Reflections of Christ Slideshow from Reflections of Christ on Vimeo.

Christmas easily turns into such a commercial holiday. I am guilty of wanting to make sure I have the best gifts, baking, decorating, and cooking possible. Nothing is wrong with all of those things, except when they replace the reason we celebrate Christmas. As I watched this video, tears began to flow as I reflected on the Birth and life of our Savior, Jesus Christ. As I remembered the tremendous sacrifice his life was, I felt humbled and motivated to change my focus around Christmas. As a Christian family, we feel so blessed to have a knowledge of the Savior as an everyday part of our life. This season truly is about his birth, life and sacrifice. I want my kids to learn and focus on that when Christmas time comes around, so I need to! I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas, enjoying time with your family, creating wonderful memories, and most importantly, remembering the wonderful man who came to this earth and sacrificed His life to be our Lord and Savior. May you all truly remember what this Holiday is all about. Merry Christmas!

Some days..

My blog is kind of turning into my venting board. So I'm sorry if you are looking for cute pictures or fun happy stories. Maybe next time :)

Today has been hard. I worked last night, and had a very busy night. I came home and luckily my mother-in-law kept payton for a few hours while I slept. I was so grateful for that. I always am. I laid in bed for a while though because my back was aching so bad. Being on my feet for 12 hours straight is affecting me A LOT sooner with this pregnancy. I am trying everything I know...chiropractor, icy hot, heat pad, hot bath, tylenol, etc etc. Some things help a bit...for a little while. But every time I work it aches constantly for at least a day or more. I also have pretty bad sciatic pain already. Between the back pain and the sciatic pain, sleeping has gotten to be difficult. Even when I come home from a long night of work exhausted. I struggle to sleep. And then when I finally get to sleep and am resting....I wake up cause I have to pee. ugh. It really is a good thing these little babies are worth it!

I woke up at 11:15 and went and got Payton. He is challenging lately. And I am loosing my patience. He has been whiny, moody, and throwing tantrums. His tantrums usually consist of him collapsing to the ground. It KILLS my back when I am holding his hand and all of a sudden he screams and drops to the floor. I don't want to let him go and have him get hurt..but having his dead weight by one hand really is hard. And often the only way to deal with him is to pick him up. Picking up my screaming crying 35 lb child is also painful for me. I don't know what to do. Rewarding him doesn't work. Time outs don't work. Taking things away doesn't work. I know I deserve every bit of what he gives me because I guess I was the same way as a 2 year old. But when I am running on 3ish hours of sleep, having worked the night before, and having constant back pain, I can't deal with it well. I am trying SO hard to be a good mom, especially the days after I work. I don't want to stick my kid in front of the TV with all the snacks and toys he wants, yet sometimes that is the only way I can function! I felt like I failed today. I lost my patience, yelled at him, put him in his room over and over again, and felt like I wanted to pull my hair out all day. How do I deal with him? Any suggestions? What works for your terrible two year olds? The problem is that I feel so bad for him at the same time. He misses his dad. He has a zombie mom. He knows what is allowed and what isn't. He knows when he is doing something wrong. He knows what punishments are, but it never stops him from doing it again. or ignoring me. or throwing a fit.

I had a list of things to do today, trying to get everything ready for Christmas. Devry will be home Saturday night, and may have to go back Christmas night, or monday at the latest. I want everything to be completely ready when he comes so we can spend the time he is home together, and not worry about getting "stuff" done. I want as much cooking done as possible. I want the house clean, the presents wrapped etc. I failed at my list. miserably. While Payton napped, I did dishes. And that is as far as I got. I don't know how I am going to get everything done.

Today I just feel like a failure..as a mom, a wife, a housekeeper. Devry got off work tonight, of course tired and worn out. We talked for a while and all I did was vent, complain, and acted like an insecure, emotional person. He felt so bad, and guilty that he wasn't home to help me with more. Yet, he isn't here because he is working between 13 and 18 hours a day! Making money to provide for us, and make it so I don't have to work after having the twins. I feel so bad that I spent our time talking causing him to feel bad.

This is hard. Distance is hard. Pregnancy emotions magnify everything. I know we are doing what we need to be. I know there are lessons we need to learn, experiences that will help us grow and trials that will make us better. I am hoping and praying that I can find a better attitude. That I can see the positive things more. That I can be more patient with Payton, and more supportive to Devry. That I can not dwell on the pain I am having with my pregnancy, and appreciate it more because it is part of the blessing of having two babies. I couldn't find that today. Maybe tomorrow will be better.

Decisions.

Time feels like it is flying by!
Is it really Christmas in 15 days?
I have felt like the past 4 months have just flown by.
Yet the time drags on when Devry is gone.
How does that work? How can time fly and drag at the same time.

Devry has had some changes in his job that is both good and bad.
He has been training in the "shop" since August.
They decided he is ready to go out and be a "Frac" mechanic.
I didn't understand any of the terms...very briefly the "Frac" crew work to fracture the ground and put a pipe down to get the natural gas or oil. All they do is the fracture part and another company comes in and does the rest. Each crew has about 30 people on it, and tons of semi's and equipment that is involved. So Devry is the mechanic on the crew. He is training with another guy for a few weeks, then will be solely responsible to fix anything that breaks or malfunctions (that can be fixed on the site). Its a pretty big responsibility. I am so proud of him for working so hard and learning things so fast that they feel he is ready so soon.
So this change means a ton of changes for us.
First off, his hours will increase a ridiculous amount. While in the shop he was working 9, 13ish hour days, then had 5 off. For now he is keeping that schedule but on his 9 days on he will go out with the Frac crew. They work about 16-18 hours a day.
Once he is done training, he will switch to a different schedule. He will work for 2 weeks, then be off for 1. The first week he works he will be out with the crew. The second week he will be in the shop. The week off is going to be paid (right now his 5 days off aren't paid).
So the good and bad of all of this.

Good:

• The money is amazing. He will almost triple his income. It has completely taken away the stress I had about paying for the twins, and surviving without my income. I am excited I get to be a stay at home mom when I have them (Although I will try to stay PRN, to keep my skills up)
  
• It will give him so much experience. He will get to learn everything in the field, and continue to work on the more in depth problems while in the shop. It will give him such a wide knowledge base of everything. He will be working so many hours and therefore getting tons of experience.
  
• He gets 17 paid weeks off a year!

Bad:

• The hours make it so we won't get to talk. They travel from rock springs everyday to the site they are working. It is usually an hour or two away, and in the middle of nowhere. There usually isn't cell service. He leaves between 2 and 5 am..and doesn't get home till around 7-10pm. We won't talk much. He will probably Never talk to Payton during that week.
• He will be 6-8 hours away from home the weeks he is in the field. That scares me since my labor with Payton was 7 hours. I am really scared he will miss it.
• He will be gone 14 days at a time. 9 seemed like forever. 14 is going to be hard.
  
• He has to work in the freezing cold (although he has worked outside his entire life, so he doesnt' seem to worry too much about this part).
  

Anyways, we really are excited that he will gain experience, and our income will be significantly more. We are debating how long term this will be, and whether it is best for us to be apart, or if we should move there. I am having a very difficult time saying good bye lately. The days he is leaving I feel like I am emotionally on the edge all day. I loose it over the tiniest thing. I am not coping well with it all. When I actually have to say goodbye, I cannot hold it together. I know prego hormones are contributing a ton, but I don't see it getting any easier. Payton and I do fine while he is gone. We miss him like CRAZY, but we have our routine and it works. I get overwhelmed and stressed sometimes near the end of his time away. I am very nervous about doing it with 2 more babies. However, moving there means I know no one. And if Devry is working 17 plus hours a day, its not like I would get his help anyways. So maybe it is better to stay here where I have family, friends, co-workers and neighbors all willing to help me out. Who knows! All decisions we are trying to make!

I will for sure be staying here until after the babies are born. We need to stay here until February to avoid paying a large penalty on our house. Plus, I have not heard great things about the hospital in Rock Springs, and I love my Dr. I will not switch. Most likely I will stay here and use people's help the first few months. Then my mom will come in July, and we may go visit Nova Scotia in August. We are thinking that if we move there it may be in September or October, when the babies are a little older, and perhaps sleeping through the night? Hopefully we can sell our house and not have to stress about that. So many unanswered questions. So many decisions to make.

I am so incredibly grateful for Devry. He is the most hardworking, devoted husband in the world. I feel so badly for the crazy hours he has to work. He never complains. Ever. He willingly works his butt off so that our family can be provided for. And so I don't have to work after I have these babies. I know the hours and his job is harder then he will ever let on. I know being away from us makes it so difficult for him. I feel so lucky to have such a wonderful husband who does it all without complaint or negativity.

I sure do love that guy!

20 weeks!

I am officially 20 weeks! 5 months! Halfway there! (more then halfway technically...38 weeks is the max i'll go!!)
Everything is going GREAT!
I had my 20 week ultrasound on Thursday, and it was so fun to see these little guys again. This u/s was the in depth thorough one that looks at all of their body parts, organs, etc and makes sure they are doing great. And they are! Everything looked great. I cannot say enough good things about the amazing ultrasound tech I get to see each appointment. She is so good at her job, and so kind! She looked at absolutely everything! She gave us tons of pictures! Unfortunately baby A is so low and turned to the side that it was impossible for her to see his face. She got a quick peek one time but never got a picture. Because Baby B is higher, we have tons and tons of picture of him, and only a few of Baby A. I guess he is just going to be a mystery until he gets here! Unless of course he moves before my next appointment.
They are measuring good. Baby A is in the 50th percentile and Baby B in the 40th. It is expected for them to be a bit on the smaller side since there are two. If they weren't Di/Di twins (two placentas and sacs), they would be concerned with twin to twin transfusion, but luckily it isn't a concern!
Here are the two pictures I have of baby A from the ultrasound. Of course they are only of his feet and legs..cause everything else was so low!

And here are some of the Pictures of Baby B. I have tons more, but these are my favorites!

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The tech switched to 3D to get a good picture of Baby B. There are tons of things I would rather spend a few hundred dollars on for these kiddo's then a 3D u/s , so I wouldn't have gotten one but she is awesome and took some 3d pics anyways :)

So those are some of the fun pictures we got. My Dr. told me that we will be doing an ultrasound every appointment from here on out to monitor their growth, positions, heart rates, etc. so the tech told me she is hopefully to get more pics of Baby A next time. Maybe he will cooperate :)

My appointment with my Dr was quick, and great! No problems, no concerns!
I am feeling really good! Just some back pain and sciatic pain that is to be expected. :) I am feeling them move a lot, and can really tell they are growing.
I am wearing a few maternity clothes now, and my baby bump is obvious.
Here are a few pictures of me at 20 weeks.

Definitely different then 2 weeks ago!

And of course Payton wanted to pose with me while I was taking pictures.
I know now they will just take off growing, and so will I.
As far as names go...we are so undecided. We want them to "go" together by starting with the same letter or sound. I don't want them to rhyme though. The problem is that we like a name, but can't think of another one with that sound that we like as much. I REALLY want them to be Rylin and Ryker, but Devry doesn't like either name. He wants Eli and Cooper (Peyton Manning has two little brothers names Eli and Cooper....and I'm not ok with naming them after the Manning Family). We both Love the names Mckay and Makai. I initially eliminated using them together because of how close sounding they are...but the more I hear them, the more I love them. I figure I am going to mix their names up and use the wrong one even if they don't sound anything alike, so I am starting to be ok with using them both. We will see, we are still very undecided and considering tons of names! Naming boys is hard for us! Naming two is VERY hard for us! I am very open to suggestions......so let's hear some! A few other ideas we have (and by we, I mean me mostly) are: Benson and Briar, Dawson and Denver, Cohen and Cooper.. We will see :)